twas the night before leaving and i was frantically trying to get all my things in order and refrain from crying. not really. i took care of that thursday night. hopefully i will stay normal while getting on the plane. we leave at 10:50 am from dallas and the flight is direct into Seoul, South Korea with a duration of 13 hours. there is a 15 hour time difference FORWARD, so i will land in seoul at 4:50 pm seoul time, which would be 1:50 am oklahoma time on sunday morning. My skype is up and running and my user name is litemupok so adding that name should be the ticket. i really expect i'll need to talk to people a lot not to go crazy.
A lil excited and a lil bummed, i guess i dont really know what to expect still. i'm trying to keep my expectations empty, so that im available for an entirely new experience. my latest freak out dealt with not being able to text anyone. i opted to bring my phone, but im totally convinced that it will be many many weeks before i stop picking it up to check texts and to send them. right now i feel that thats going to be the biggest shock to me.
today i also thought about how to discern the difference between coping with stress (anger/frustration/annoyances/problems) and suppressing it. by not saying anything and just smiling and nodding and thinking that "theres nothing i can do to change this, and being vocal loud and verbal will not lead to a solution" often i will just do nothing...say nothing. is that an appropriate way to manage or is it just suppression. Because one is great and one is not. does everyone need an outlet? or can is it possible to just let it die inside much like letting a coke bottle relax after its been shaken up.